Love me,zephyr.

I was basked in the bitterness of caramel
Reminiscent of the spinning hues of a carnival.
I was estranged, alive but limp and bleached,
In the humorless rain for months at a stretch,
I’d been so hungry, so hungry that I would feed
On the white-hot flakes of my soldering dreams.

But it never came.
And I was never hopeless.

To be able to blame its slow tick-tock,
For long I had been winding my wall-clock,
I’ve grown rigid, a potted plant,in the slow motion
Of the one-dimensional, unchanging, legions
Of words,same words,same weak,unique words
And out the glass door,I hear the rain approach.

Once again, it came.
It never came.

I’m sprawled on the brown lawn,
I’ve shed the last shred of clothing,
Sprinklers come to life,
Like they know I’m sinking,
Into the depths of the folds of my own skin.
I’ve unleashed the hunger,I go no further,
And no one has seen me this way before.

You were never here,
Everytime it rained.
In the losing desire,
Never saw a victorious zephyr,
What was it that kept you away,
The rain or the wait for zephyr?
I don’t know you like I knew them,
I don’t trust you the way I did them,
But I’m more naked than ever before,
No one has seen me this way before.

Tireless Wonderment

Chastified, tepid nigh night,
Unwoven waves thrash inside,
Hold me quiet, help me shun
The screaming voices close by,
They’re gnawing at my crown.
And don’t tell me the voice is mine,
Don’t want to know,
Don’t want to know where my chosen path
Has tossed me today.
For tomorrow is laid in its boulevard,
It needs me,as do I.
My dreams have suffered in the fear of this find,
Don’t tease me, my lost child.

Like you, I want to be just like you,
My aimless, missing one.
Like the melted silver tears of the moon,
Fuelling the pace of my sleep.
Like you, let me be just like you.

Dimpled dirty soot-black face,
I yearn for your snow-white embrace.
I need your wandering legs,and
Your sundry curiosity complex,
Wash me with your facecloth,
I wish to collapse on your knees,
Long to faint in peace.
Long to wait in peace for the waning of my morrows
In the light after darkness.
I tremble stiff,like the crystallized leaves
Of a snow besotted suburb.
The ashen brick pillars sigh steam and smoke on my mind,
Even as I lie naked in the open.

I long to be like you,little one.
I long for the surprise that my
Mirrortwin can evoke with my
Eyes open wide
I reach to touch the other face
Across the edge of this lonely Reality,
Beyond the barbwire of tangibility.
And I stroke the awe of the truth that I
Behind my shadow,exist.
Commit me ,child, again to that Avalon
Of mermaids and fairies.

Oh,innocent aimless child,make me wonder again.
Make me wonder,not why I am me…
But how I got to be the one and only…
Me.

My belongings

Take these wings and hide them away,
Take my word it is never safe
Out there in the world to where you’re being sent,
They all lust for your feathery scent.


Clandestine fatal wings,
She is mine,when I am amiss
Upon the walls you have me against,
She is out taking me spiraling out of your reach.

Clandestine,she is mine,
Dont try to find,behind
Her pretencious eyes,
Your dead bride,
Dont fool yourself!
She's your suicide.

Your mind,its riddled with the noise of wings,
Drowns the voice of your humble inklings,
You think you love me enough to make my choice,
That now you have taken to stealing my voice.

Clandestine fatal wings,
She is mine,when I am amiss.

'Dont understand,why you cant,
Be happy with
Your own two hands.
Why must you suppress me,
Did you never hear,
Live and let be.

One day you will fall with the dead stars from the space,
And lie cold,so cold!in the feathers of your own mistakes,
They who try to outshine the love that they get,
Finally fade,trying to outshine their ownselves.
I...I will have forgotten your name,and who you were,
The world...the world would forget that you ever were.

She stays with me,secretly,no one must try to know,
She is mine,I belong to me,and I won't let her go.

The Unforgivable Deception

 I have been long,
Standing strong,
Watching you appear,
And fast disappear.
Didn't you call me your playmate?
How could you be so innocent?
So perfect...always trying to catch the ice melt,
And now look what you have done.
You dissolved your own path....

Deliver me.
Deliver me from this plaque of right and wrong,
Don't want to stay so wronged.

Now you have me weakening,
Upon my own deceptive reflections.
Solitude spins a web of conscience,
Taking my trust from own self

While faces take your shape,
Asking me to love them back.
Kill this vision that haunts me so!

Locked doors try to captivate
Me with this sense of your presence.
And the night has me threatening me
Of exposure around sleep-talkings

While I struggle
To disentangle my shadows from yours.
Kill this vision that haunts me so!
Kill it!

Don't know what I want to say,
Whether I want them to know I repent,
Or whether I truly do at all,
Or if it is merely my selfishness
So I can finally find
Peace with my oldselves.

I have been long
Standing strong,
Watching you writhe in pain.
I have caught the ice melt,
Into my palms as I have let,
You slowly drain. 

Trilogy of Light--Part I-- THE GUARDIANS

The roads,
In the land of Hope,
Is run all alone,
By the Guardians of light.

And the flight,
Of the stars into the night,
As they start to collide,
With the shields of vengeance.

They confess,
They do confess,
But nothing ever happens.

This is the land tortured by,
The Guardians of Light.

Divine,
Is the cause of our time,
For the sake of mankind,
To call old man a disgrace.

And the face,
Of her face black with dismay,
Her mother cries in vain,
Oh, what a feeble shame!

But they pray,
They do and did pray,
But nothing paid.

Let the fire break out,
Let all be erased out,
Let the mutiny of the last
Be the story of the flags.

This is the land of hope,
And everyone sleeps alone.
The land tortured by,
The Guardians of Light.

Rapunzel,Rapunzel,Where do you hide?

As Night is simmered in radiating heat,
You can see a glimmer,of a radiant spirit,
Where the bed wasn't made,on the other side,
You wish to be there,you try to deny,
You fall to your pillows,the confession stand,
With truth they betray you,deny you can't.

Fastened to despondence,
Responding to only lunatics,
Suppressed by the fear of this dusk,
I am sure its the work of hypnotics.

Something is taking me piece by piece,
Undoing the closures,smoothening every crease.

Come away from the valley of composure,
Terminate my pride for my closures,
I'm grieving under the stars of fortnight,
Wishing to come undone.
I've left my home,and all my statues.
You and me,all undone.  


As the fervent dreamer,sanctifies his greed,
This pride flickered,furious but timid.
But where I wished to melt through the floor,
I'm melting out of my footholds,
I'm a sinner to deny the love that flowed,
Trying to touch me,but touched mere cold.
  
As I let go,of the hunger that never showed,
I feel cratfted by a devious religion,
I have to let go,or I may never know,
How twisted I might have been.

Something is taking me piece by piece
Undoing all closures,reason eclipsed.


Come for me where I lie static,
Warm,and undone.
Seek me where I breathe steady,
Serene,and undone.

Nipped,frozen,red PLUMS OF A BUNCH

The sun looks green through the screen
Of the classroom we’re all locked in.
Locked in, blocked out from outer space,
We lust, we thirst, and we’re human beings.

Faraway the sky looks grey.
The cataract in the solar eye,
Fails to see that we won’t learn,
From the books given to us by the Wise.
Little darling,where do you run away,
Believe in us,you are not alone.
You will be mated,like everyone else,
Or if not,you’re not alone.

(Nipped, frozen, red little plums,
Hanging in a branch,
Whispering to each other.
Sweet, acrid left clustered together.
Left to learn what the soil only knows,
Left beyond salvation thus forever.)

Like fleshy worms, on blackboard swarm,
Words that we read in unison.
In unison, we breach the rules of the hall
Of shame, we reach for the same Throne.

Somewhere God doesn’t await,
Our dwindling one by one,
I still cry for him, she cries for me,
This is the imperfect cycle of Human.
Little darling, where do you run away,
Believe in us, you are not alone.
The only one so, in this damned world
Is the one sitting above us all.

New little plum in this old branch,
Do not run away frightened.
We may be nipped,but we are together,
None shall try to sever our cluster.
We will suffer,but never as much,
As the lonely one who sits above us.