Sunday, August 9, 2009

Thieves

The foul-smelling ghost of a breath left

Upon the glass, proof of some theft

Will live on to relive the stealthy night,

Stories of missing treasures to find…

Ghouls of darkness will whisper no lie;

It will scream and shriek their might!

And I will merely mumble my fears

And crumble under the wearing linger

Of the omniscient fallacy called disguise…

But who will they weep for upon my demise?


Lies demean before your eyes,

They shriek with the living

And plead with the dying…

They reveal your secrets underlying

The professed sanctity of your Life.

Yet you forsake your only time,

Your second chance, your last trial…

Death shall only erase the triumphs

Of your vice upon the scars…

Never will it redeem your hands

Of the blunders that taint your chance…

Your fear remains in the confessions…

At the end, your single lone possession

And by the time your life whirls away…

Your only breathing and gasping prey…

Their treasures, your obsession,

Their loss and your cremation.


The night stands too still…

While a sage sings of Heaven…

The wind cleanses their sills

While we reap our ashes...


Thursday, July 2, 2009

My Life by the Hours

Nostalgia---
Sleepless the sound of nostalgia
Down in the chalets of remorse,
Folded the November pages of school diary
Leftover of battles, witness of war…
Humor me now, my articulate friends,
Reframe my flaws through my remains…
Leave nothing behind, for once, of this day,
Leave nothing behind to follow the sunset…
Nothing….

Regrets---
I am all yours today at own will
Never mind the penetrating pills…
The surrounding haze will soon pass forever
And I will wake up to dry grass…
Mesmerize me, hypnotize me…
Kill me, shred me, vitalize me…
Then turn the tables around by the hour,
And pass me the salt for all I can scour…
All I can scour…

Aging---
Simmered afternoons in the waking,
Remember the gladiators’ swords…
Fighting unto the wishful demented finality-
Death- the worries fade to the end…
Burn everything when death does apart
My body and my ever-hovering past…
Save nothing for my grandchildren to contest
Save nothing for them to ever detest…
Nothing…

Hours----

Nothing is forever, I learnt early.

I live by my rules for my uncertainties…

Are in nobody’s hand but my own

Like dust clinging to the hour’s hand

And hour hand takes me back

Down the same winding path…

Time and again, the hands await…

Monday, May 4, 2009

Randomness Thoughts about you

First rain of the year...or so it seems...
When was the last time we got drenched before today? Its been days i guess...
I saw a grasshopper flying out of the lake into the night...didnt you see?
Its 12:30...and I'm waiting for your call. I smoke this one...
I smoke this one to stay on longer with you in hell...just in case something happens in this lifetime.
Forgive me.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Hold The Thought

Hold the thought
You won’t live beyond.
Surface granules
Linger over the duels
And I callously hold it
The thought I mean;
It licks my exposure
I boldly come clean…

Have I lost you yet?
Haven’t I lost you yet?
Innocence converses
With all my differences.
I’m cracking sideways
I can see the ocean
Its blue tints my face
And bubbles choke my jargons…

I fall backwards
The other half of me…
And I can smell
The earth defending
My touch, my skin
So effervescently…
The hue of the open flesh
Kills the mahogany…
So I revert to my stand…
Swaying viscerally…
And nothing makes noise
Nothing takes the breeze…
But I stand nonetheless…
This half of me
I stand looking ahead…
Where you left me…

All in a second…
The phone says ‘no answer’,
Only fifteen rings…
And I trip over.
The thought is splayed
And you disappear…across the floor…

Saturday, April 18, 2009

A Lust of Wind- The Return to Roots

The constant and overpowering wafting of the scent of the rain that never came drove me crazy all day...and you were so beautiful. If not nature, you were...covered in the muck and sweat from the earth and air of all the places you took me with you...for all the cringing of my heart, I could never believe I betrayed you myself...


In the flickering torment
Of light and leaves,
Who shall win
The half-hearted wind?
Beneath the sunshine
Of the neon eaves,
I stand nowhere
I can rise and sink.
And in a trance and a sore-eyed blink
The lust vaporized as you walked in…

The freedom thrust
Into the incessant traffic,
Livid with the clatter
Of emerald hope,
Lingered long till
A crimson brick
Wall stood between you
And my road…
The lust returned as an impatient child,
And ran, it ran escapist and wild…

Dates of my diary,
Charred holes in pages
And cigarette butts
Nipped till the ends
No runaway homage,
Just a rampage,
Of the loveless miser,
Voiceless tramp.

And the wind is gone,
The light disappears,
It starts to rain…
Ecstatic,the leaves quiver…

NuMB SaTurdaY- The Reason and Reflex

Its been days since I was stoned....and you were uprooted.Its been days since I've ceased punishing myself for what happened and begun blaming you secretly for reminding me of my guilt...and the sins will never vanish, but my guilt will...in pursuasion of freedom...in pursuasion of salvage...in pursuasion of...more sins....

The crushing gnawing of the saber winds,
Hear the mermaid tails of the branchless twigs,
The ghoulish laughter of the rustic bridge,
The distant tremor of our fleece of dreams...

Your face will always find your face,
Locked upon your two eyes,
In the mirror, among the mess,
Of faces many to be hoaxed by.

Numb Saturday,
I’ve broken the chains,
Numb Saturday,
I’ve opened the veins,
Numb Saturday,
Am I so profane?


While my candle quietly slays the wind,
The crafty retort of my battered innocence
Into your moist eyes, blinds their glint,
So close to your eyes so unsuspecting…

Your face will always find your face,
Locked upon your two hole-eyes,
In the mirror, among the mess,
Of faces many to be hoaxed by.
Numb Saturday,
I’ve broken the chain,
Numb Saturday,
I opened the veins,
Numb Saturday,
But I have not changed.

They called her witch when she was bound
To the stake through the ground
When she escaped they called her free
She was more than just the living.

Another Saturday
And I’m once again hiding,
Behind my illusions,
Defying what I’m fighting…
Lying to my sore
Promises no more…
This is how I feel
And this is how I heal…

On numb Saturday,
When I broke the chains,
On Numb Saturday,
I opened the veins,
Numb Saturday
Sit still and vain.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Not a Word

Every time you conquered your obligations to me,
Every time you surmounted your own sincerity
In the promises bidden to me,
You undid your own words,
You untied your faith
In the vices you grieved,
You magicked the pre-existing truth into a lie.
Even though you never said one word of lie.
Not a word.